mechanisms&intentions-pluk-perma-2015

I find myself doing/not-doing something that I had consciously intended/agreed to do/not do

I understand that this was an unconscious but habitual doing/not-doing

p.e.lighting a cigarette while I wanted to quit

how do I react ?

Do I install mechanisms to bring my intentions/agreements into my daily consciousness ?

If no, why not ?

I do not find myself doing/not-doing something that I had consciously intended/agreed to do/not do

somebody or something reminds me of the non-realised intention/agreement

how do I react ?

Do I accept the remark ?

Do I install mechanisms to bring my intentions/agreements into my daily consciousness ?

Or do I throw a tantrum, pushing the conscious realisation away ?

Why ?

Do I really want to keep my consciousness separated from my acts ?

Why ?

Do I know that I separate myself in this way from inner spiritual union ?

Do I know that I separate myself in this way from deep union with people I want to be close to

How far do I want to go in convincing myself&others that I was not “doing/not-doing something that I had consciously intended/agreed to do/not do” ?

Am I ready to cut my social ties with whoever witnesses my “doing/not-doing something that I had consciously intended/agreed to do/not do” ?

Why ?

Deeper

how real are the intentions/agreements I make with myself if part of me says&another part of me does/does not according to how I feel ?

Maybe it is time to review my intentions/agreements&only keep the ones I can do wholeheartedly